Have you ever let someone be your everything?
No.
One of my rules is, never love someone more than they love you.
Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
My part is fucked up.
Everything I try to eat tastes like cardboard.
I had terrible dreams.
Who was the last person you stayed up on the phone with 'til 2 AM?
Hmm.
Nick.?
Have you ever had your heart broken?
Stolen and smashed and never returned, but I do just fine without it, whatever that means.
Do you have any weird inside jokes?
Tons.
"ADD, I'm telling a story!"
"Piss off, ya dickhead Ed! I'm out there working my freckle off and you're in here working your bloody mouth off, as per usual! Now piss off!"
Could you go the rest of your life without a cigarette?
Eh. I hope so.
Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
A few.
What was the highlight of this week or what will be?
Ivy's house~!
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Nope.
Do you have alcohol in your house?
Basement bar, vodka on the counter, beer and hard lemonade in the fridge, also some truly rancid malt liquor in the fridge, and oh look! Some brandy on the kitchen table! And that's not even MENTIONING the shit in my parent's room.
Have you ever wanted something you couldn't have?
I just want something I can never have.
What's the number one thing you want in life right now?
I don't know, be happy I spose? S
chool to not start yet?
It to be Sunday alfuckingready?
What was on your mind mostly today?
Just woke up.
Are you a morning or night person?
Night.
Where is the next place you will travel to?
Ehhh library if it's not hot but I think it is...
Have you cried today at all?
Well I did cry sometime after midnight which counts as today so yeah.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex that you talked to?
Payton..
Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone on your top friends?
Course.
Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
Yeah.
Do you talk in your sleep?
Haha yeah.
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
Yes.
Do you and your best friend look anything alike?
Don't have a best friend.
It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?
I'm a heavy sleeper, wouldn't wake for the world... if I'm actually sleeping, four in the morning is kinda early to be asleep.
Are you going to have a good night?
Don't think so.
Have you ever ran away?
Haha no.
But I'd like to.
Do you work?
I work hard.
Are you happy with your life?
Not really...
Look out your window, what do you see?
Car, street, hot outside, ocean.
Have you ever walked into wall?
Often.
What do you hear?
The Lego Star Wars theme music.
Do you have a favorite pair of jeans?
I don't own any jeans that fit me right now.
Have you ever just felt like you could cry an ocean?
That's a fucking lot of salt water...
How long do you spend on your hair each day?
Like zero seconds.
Describe what you would call the perfect day?
Hmm.
I don't know.
I'd have to ask Felix Felicis.
Do you have Twitter?
No, it's creepy.
'Eating dinner.' TWEET!'
Pork's a little dry.' TWEET!
'My mom's peas and carrots kinda suck.' TWEEEEEt!
WHO FUCKIN CARES!?
Do you eat cereal?
Sometimes.
Do you have bangs?
Nope.
When was the last time you got your hair done?
Never gotten it done, I cut it myself.
Do you like the dentist?
Yeah, I like getting shots in my gums. I like getting teeth pulled and bleeding fucking puddles in the bathroom sink. I like the look on your face, and the fact that I'm not joking. I love the dentist.
Is there a person in your life that you know you'll never forget?
A few.
Have you ever lived through a hurricane?
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn. Worls serves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs.
Do you like to draw?
Yeah.
What is on your bedroom walls?
Paint, posters, mirror, tackboard.
What kind of cell phone do you have?
I don't.
What's the first line of the last song you listened to?
"I'm burning like a bridge for your body."
How many cell phones have you had in your life?
Zero.
Do you still watch movies on a VCR?
Sometimes.
What's your opinion of MySpace?
Annoying, childish, but I like the fact that I can have music and a cool layout and a fun display name.
Who is your favorite person to hug?
Still Darrion.
Do you have a big secret?
A few.
Do you understand politics?
Yeah.
How much money is in your wallet?
Zero dolla.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Heave a sigh for the burden that is being home alone.
Today, I was terrible depressed and looking for some substances with which to dumb myself down. I found three unopened sunflower seeds in my pocket. Needless to say, I am no longer depressed and I need no substances. MLIA.
But really. I do hate being home alone. Ivy is, I'm sure, tired of me. Nick is unreachable, Gabe doesn't care. Who am I to call to stem the flow of loneliness? NOBODY, THAT'S FUCKIN WHO.
I don't even own a working television with which to distract myself. Oh, woe is me.
Gah. I can't stand it any longer! I'll open my veins! I'll swallow a gun!
Sigh.
I crave sweets.
Nothing's open this late and I want to save my money for Sunday.
Sigh.
Siiiiiiigh.
But really. I do hate being home alone. Ivy is, I'm sure, tired of me. Nick is unreachable, Gabe doesn't care. Who am I to call to stem the flow of loneliness? NOBODY, THAT'S FUCKIN WHO.
I don't even own a working television with which to distract myself. Oh, woe is me.
Gah. I can't stand it any longer! I'll open my veins! I'll swallow a gun!
Sigh.
I crave sweets.
Nothing's open this late and I want to save my money for Sunday.
Sigh.
Siiiiiiigh.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Bored, as usual.
Hmm.
Nick.
I can't say I love him because I don't know what that means. I live him. Emily lives Nick. Just like Bret used to live Kylee. But now it's just Bret Lives, because Kylee's a cheating whore.
Anyways.
On the road today, I saw a Sub Pop sticker on a Suburu.
A little voice inside my head said, yuppies smell teen spirit too.
I thought I knew what love was, but I was blind.
Those days are gone forever, whatever, nevermind.
I wish it could stay like this forever. I don't want things to change. Because I know you know we all know it won't be for the better. I'm not looking foward to going to a new school with people I hate and one person I don't hate who hates me. It's all fecking ridiculous. And I highly doubt Adam and Gabe and Cara and Chelsea and Claire and Ethan and whoever else are going to let me be in their group again after a whole summer of ignoring them and being ignored by them. And now that Darrion hates me, who am I supposed to hang out with? I'll tell you who. I can see it already. I'm going to spend seven hours a day alone and not talking. See Nick maybe once a week, if that. I'm really really sick of this stupid city and all the people in it.
Nick.
I can't say I love him because I don't know what that means. I live him. Emily lives Nick. Just like Bret used to live Kylee. But now it's just Bret Lives, because Kylee's a cheating whore.
Anyways.
On the road today, I saw a Sub Pop sticker on a Suburu.
A little voice inside my head said, yuppies smell teen spirit too.
I thought I knew what love was, but I was blind.
Those days are gone forever, whatever, nevermind.
I wish it could stay like this forever. I don't want things to change. Because I know you know we all know it won't be for the better. I'm not looking foward to going to a new school with people I hate and one person I don't hate who hates me. It's all fecking ridiculous. And I highly doubt Adam and Gabe and Cara and Chelsea and Claire and Ethan and whoever else are going to let me be in their group again after a whole summer of ignoring them and being ignored by them. And now that Darrion hates me, who am I supposed to hang out with? I'll tell you who. I can see it already. I'm going to spend seven hours a day alone and not talking. See Nick maybe once a week, if that. I'm really really sick of this stupid city and all the people in it.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Bored. MySpace surveys.
Hi, your name is?
Whatever you want it to be, sugar.
Who are you dating?
Nick.=]
Where do you think your number one is right now?
Band.
What is the stupidest thing you've ever done?
Well there have been a lot of those...
Will this weekend be a good one?
Looks that way.
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
My brother?Nahh.
Have you ever stayed up at night waiting for someone to call/text you?
Pathetic but yeah.
How did you and your number two become friends?
Band.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
We'll see.
What were you doing at 10:20 last night?
HA.
Talking to Nick and kissing flowers.
Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
Tacky as fuck, I hate it.
Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?
Haha okay, do whatever hope you're happy but we can still be friends-with-benefits, right?
Who'd you last talk to on the phone?
Mmmm Ivy.
Do you want to know the date of your death?
Hmm.
No.
Last person you hugged?
Nick. <3
Name something you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?
Cheating lying nose-picking.
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?
Sure hope so.
Could you go a whole year without cursing?
Nope.
Are you happy with the way things are going?
Yeah.
How's your love life?
Pretty fuckin great.
Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
Well they're both just a natural phenomenon created by light so I'd say neither, but sunset is prettier.
How do you feel about girls smoking?
Disgusting, I'd say wait till you're a woman first but do what you want.
So what do you want for your birthday?
Nothing.
Do you think you'll have the same boyfriend/girlfriend a year from now?
Hope so.
Were you single on Valentine's Day?
Nope.
Have you smoked a cigarette today?
Course not.
How's your hair looking?
Blah.
Bedhead.
Tres greasy.
Can you recall the last time you liked someone?
Right now.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
He's probably sleeping. :)
When you're bored in class, what do you usually do?
Listen to my iPod, sleep, doodle, write.
How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?
My mom would ask where I had it done (not body part, establishment) and my dad would ask how much.
Have you ever kissed anyone named Jason?
Hmm.
I believe so.
Do you still talk to the person you were dating 6 months ago?
Ummm 6 months ago would be in...
February?
Gabe?
Oh yeah.
Do you and your bestfriend look alike?
I don't have a bestfriend.
Whatever you want it to be, sugar.
Who are you dating?
Nick.=]
Where do you think your number one is right now?
Band.
What is the stupidest thing you've ever done?
Well there have been a lot of those...
Will this weekend be a good one?
Looks that way.
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
My brother?Nahh.
Have you ever stayed up at night waiting for someone to call/text you?
Pathetic but yeah.
How did you and your number two become friends?
Band.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
We'll see.
What were you doing at 10:20 last night?
HA.
Talking to Nick and kissing flowers.
Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
Tacky as fuck, I hate it.
Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?
Haha okay, do whatever hope you're happy but we can still be friends-with-benefits, right?
Who'd you last talk to on the phone?
Mmmm Ivy.
Do you want to know the date of your death?
Hmm.
No.
Last person you hugged?
Nick. <3
Name something you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?
Cheating lying nose-picking.
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?
Sure hope so.
Could you go a whole year without cursing?
Nope.
Are you happy with the way things are going?
Yeah.
How's your love life?
Pretty fuckin great.
Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
Well they're both just a natural phenomenon created by light so I'd say neither, but sunset is prettier.
How do you feel about girls smoking?
Disgusting, I'd say wait till you're a woman first but do what you want.
So what do you want for your birthday?
Nothing.
Do you think you'll have the same boyfriend/girlfriend a year from now?
Hope so.
Were you single on Valentine's Day?
Nope.
Have you smoked a cigarette today?
Course not.
How's your hair looking?
Blah.
Bedhead.
Tres greasy.
Can you recall the last time you liked someone?
Right now.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
He's probably sleeping. :)
When you're bored in class, what do you usually do?
Listen to my iPod, sleep, doodle, write.
How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?
My mom would ask where I had it done (not body part, establishment) and my dad would ask how much.
Have you ever kissed anyone named Jason?
Hmm.
I believe so.
Do you still talk to the person you were dating 6 months ago?
Ummm 6 months ago would be in...
February?
Gabe?
Oh yeah.
Do you and your bestfriend look alike?
I don't have a bestfriend.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
It's all been done and said
"I'm heaven sent, don't you dare forget. I am all you've ever wanted, what all the other girls all promised. Sorry I told. I just needed you to know. I think in decimals and dollars. I am the cause to all your problems, shelter from cold. We are never alone. Coordinate brain and mouth, then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out. I wish I knew..."
"Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up? Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck? Are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?"
I'm feeling musical, can you tell? I'm out of my grunge/classic rock stage and revisiting my acoustic punk stage, it seems. Brand New, Rise Against, Yellowcard and Sugarcult. Saves the Day. Say Anything. You know how it is. "Cause we live on front porches and swing life away. And we get by just fine here on minimum wage. If love is a labour, I'll slave till the end. I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand."
But no song fills me with as much passion as "Jude Law and a Semester Abroad" by Brand New. The acoustic version is okay but I'm in love with the original. "I still taste you, thus reserve my right to hate you. And all this empty space that you create does nothing for my flawless sense of style." So much how I feel about my most recent ex. "And if you ever said you missed me, then don't say you never lied-I'm without you."
I especially love the title- "Jude Law and a Semester Abroad." Jude Law is like the perfect upstanding English boy, and the 'semester abroad' bit is because the song is about the lead singer's girlfriend taking a semester abroad in England, hence Jude Law.
And this part reminds me of Nick, and how I know I'll feel when it all ecentually ends: "But I've got a plan, I've got a plan: to drink for fourty days and fourty nights; a sip for every second-hand tick and for every time fed me the line, 'you mean so much to me'. I'm without you. Because he's always encouraged me not to drink, I think if he ever cheats or dumps me that's how I'll forget. It seems so perfect. And he always tells me how important I am to him, and when it ends it'll be like he was feeding me those lines, that bullshit. Just perfect.
But this is more like how me and Nick are now: "I am thinking it's a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images. And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned." Not that we've ever kissed but it really does feel like we're almost-perfect matches. Well... not really. There is so much I hate about him and all of my 'I love you"s are so much nothing. I know it's going to end eventually and he can't get this through his head. So stubborn. It will not come in handy when this actually ends.
"They will see us waving from such great heights, 'come down now', they'll say. But everything looks perfect from far away,'come down now', but we'll stay..."
(Credits: First song, "Okay I Believe You But My Tommy Gun Don't", Brand New. Second song, "Swing Life Away", Rise Against. Third song, the same. Fourth and fifth, "Jude Law and a Semester Abroad" by Brand New, sixth, the same. Seventh and eighth, "Such Great Heights" by The Postal Service.)
"Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up? Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck? Are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?"
I'm feeling musical, can you tell? I'm out of my grunge/classic rock stage and revisiting my acoustic punk stage, it seems. Brand New, Rise Against, Yellowcard and Sugarcult. Saves the Day. Say Anything. You know how it is. "Cause we live on front porches and swing life away. And we get by just fine here on minimum wage. If love is a labour, I'll slave till the end. I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand."
But no song fills me with as much passion as "Jude Law and a Semester Abroad" by Brand New. The acoustic version is okay but I'm in love with the original. "I still taste you, thus reserve my right to hate you. And all this empty space that you create does nothing for my flawless sense of style." So much how I feel about my most recent ex. "And if you ever said you missed me, then don't say you never lied-I'm without you."
I especially love the title- "Jude Law and a Semester Abroad." Jude Law is like the perfect upstanding English boy, and the 'semester abroad' bit is because the song is about the lead singer's girlfriend taking a semester abroad in England, hence Jude Law.
And this part reminds me of Nick, and how I know I'll feel when it all ecentually ends: "But I've got a plan, I've got a plan: to drink for fourty days and fourty nights; a sip for every second-hand tick and for every time fed me the line, 'you mean so much to me'. I'm without you. Because he's always encouraged me not to drink, I think if he ever cheats or dumps me that's how I'll forget. It seems so perfect. And he always tells me how important I am to him, and when it ends it'll be like he was feeding me those lines, that bullshit. Just perfect.
But this is more like how me and Nick are now: "I am thinking it's a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images. And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned." Not that we've ever kissed but it really does feel like we're almost-perfect matches. Well... not really. There is so much I hate about him and all of my 'I love you"s are so much nothing. I know it's going to end eventually and he can't get this through his head. So stubborn. It will not come in handy when this actually ends.
"They will see us waving from such great heights, 'come down now', they'll say. But everything looks perfect from far away,'come down now', but we'll stay..."
(Credits: First song, "Okay I Believe You But My Tommy Gun Don't", Brand New. Second song, "Swing Life Away", Rise Against. Third song, the same. Fourth and fifth, "Jude Law and a Semester Abroad" by Brand New, sixth, the same. Seventh and eighth, "Such Great Heights" by The Postal Service.)
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Here Comes the Sun King
My new obsession. I've always loved the Beatles, but this is something special:
Quando para mucho mi amore de felice corazon. Mundo paparazzi mi amore chicka ferdy parasol. Presto OBRIGADO tanta mucho Kay can eat it carousel.
This is a mix of garbles Italian and Spanish, written by John Lennon, which literally translates to:
When for much my love of happy heart, world paparazzi my love green for warm sun, hill as much much that small carousel.
It doesn't make much sense to the naked eye, but when you give it some thought it has deep meaning for everyone. And the foreign version sounds beautiful.
Quando para mucho mi amore de felice corazon. Mundo paparazzi mi amore chicka ferdy parasol. Presto OBRIGADO tanta mucho Kay can eat it carousel.
This is a mix of garbles Italian and Spanish, written by John Lennon, which literally translates to:
When for much my love of happy heart, world paparazzi my love green for warm sun, hill as much much that small carousel.
It doesn't make much sense to the naked eye, but when you give it some thought it has deep meaning for everyone. And the foreign version sounds beautiful.
Hola.
So, some good news.
Me and Nick are going out :D
Here's how it went down (yes, it was over the internet.):
Isn't he precious?
Me and Nick are going out :D
Here's how it went down (yes, it was over the internet.):
Nick:
I have to go now..
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2:12 PM
Emily:
aw okay.
……………………………………………………
2:12 PM
Nick:
sorry...
I love you
……………………………………………………
2:12 PM
Emily:
will you go out with me>?
……………………………………………………
2:13 PM
Nick:
what do you mean go out?
……………………………………………………
2:13 PM
Emily:
like dating.
……………………………………………………
2:13 PM
Nick:
yeah
……………………………………………………
2:13 PM
Emily:
awesome.
k, love you. byebye.
=]
……………………………………………………
2:14 PM
Nick:
so we're dating now?
……………………………………………………
2:14 PM
Emily:
it would appear so.
……………………………………………………
2:16 PM
Nick:
okay =)
bye
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2:16 PM
Emily:
Isn't he precious?
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